How counter-cyclical is personal?

Its been over a year since I've tried to sit down and write some string of words that make any sense when I go back and read them. There is this whole feeling of being exhausted in a space that is unappreciative of anything but itself. Everything from music to media seem self serving and condescending, self righteous and marketed as "beyond anything you can possibly imagine". It doesn't seem like too much has changed in the way the critics still seem to be 'raving' about some form of media before it even gets released. Tired of artists that think they are too smart or too cool or know too much about everything else and yet are churning out similar works of the very same artists and musicians they speak out on. I'm being a tad vague because if I really sat down and took the time to note all of the instances that I have observed of these occurrences, I wouldn't have time for attempts at musical expression.

This brings me to the next point: 'Trying' while 'Being'. Trying can be frustrating in the plight of being, because reaching the point of 'being' means to me that one is content with one's existence and is no longer needs to try. Being content with your existence is great, it also means you don't have to worry about getting there because it means that you are simply enjoying the ride that existence brings. I've spent many years enjoying my existence and in that joy Ive experienced two forms of counter-cyclical effects...well three technically. Okay, four which are:

1) Creative
2) Emotional
3) Spiritual
4) Material

I choose to use the word counter-cyclical outside of its normal application which is in business economics, instead using it towards a sociological perspective as the root meaning is to work against tendencies. Within ones 'being' one still has to make attempts, which means that one still has to 'try' to do something. As a musician I can't argue against that point or I won't create any music. When I am in a relationship I also can't argue against that or I simply won't have a successful or at least meaningful relationship. I assume that one can't go through life not wondering what one's place is in this world without the fear of one's own dreams collapsing into the chasm of non actualization and one certainly wont be able to live in nothing because eventually everyone will need something in which one will have to try to obtain it. I look into it in this manner:

Creating music is such a restrictive personal discipline that I would imagine improvisation to be even more frustrating. While programming songs may contain a small amount of form or free thought and selflessness, I don't see how the creation of music and the mantra of being can coincide without driving one mad. Even the improviser practices so the only true form of creation is creating nothing and we all have argued that something that comes from nothing is an ideal: Creation.

Sure in my music there is an element of influence and while I attempt not to trace those who have created before me there always seems to be this moment in creating the form of the track that I feel it is coming together into some recognizable form that I like. Since I am completely self taught in music creation and sculpting, theory and application, I've taken obvious influence from some incredible artists of which, to me, makes no sense to mention because in my mind music is about itself and not the artist creating the music. Personally no artist should claim any of their works are original because if we aren't already borrowing the sound in the attempt to apply its use in a different manner, we are using objects that are already either designed to make sound or arguing that the object we created would not produce a sound one can apply had it not been built. To me this is real music theory, far more interesting to me than which band is more popular, who is more beautiful looking as an artist or who used auto-tune next.

A song of sound is not about the band or the faces of those who create the music, it is about bringing to life something that you have pulled from the chasm of collapsed dreams that was in existence already yet out of your reach or in different pieces vibrating on some perceived different frequency so as to appear non existent. I always trip out on that.

So, how did this track come to be? I didn't follow a formula, I didn't map it out and I didn't pick my sounds before I started as far as having any specific idea in mind so where the heck did this track I assembled just come from?

To me my formula is less theory and more emotive. My attempts at creating sounds from emotions usually only half materialize as my emotions always change. TO capture any emotion in musical form should generate some kind of award in my opinion as it exposes the sheer beauty of our being, which would mean nothing had we not tried to define it. I believe that something can come from nothing but not from simply being. As where there was once nothing there is now sound and feeling and a sense of accomplishment and you certainly can't feel any sense of accomplishment if all you care about is just being. It seems nihilistic to me especially with our ability as musicians to define our destiny though music and in sound.

This year marked the detraction of a particular set of emotions and a particular person that I wished I could have held on to and not so long before that marked a year in which I had my material life flipped on its lid and learned how little I actually needed to move on. While those were completely separate instances in time, capping those feelings and moving through them, channeling the emotions into musical form have charged the creativity lost during those times when I thought all was well. For me, when all is well, I tend to not create, simply because all is well and there is nothing seemingly in need of creating at that moment. It's the moment when I'm enjoying my existence...the moment of being...that there is no need to accomplish anything and try. It's almost like I require jolts of emotive change to influence creativity which in a way I think is awesome and unique in musical perspective. This way I feel I beat pressure laid on me through social and media influence where we're all supposed to keep obtaining that next thing.

I choose not to find self worth through obtaining things because it's always the next 'thing' I'll be after that becomes who I am rather life just being "who I am" that defines me. There's nothing incorrect about directing inward to understand the external around ones self instead of the opposite of bringing in things around you into your field of perspective to define who you are. I think that's why I don't like sports. You seem to become either a serial adulterer or a drug addict by achieving the external goals of money and fame and property and women. I know, musicians are some of the biggest adulterers and drug addicts of all time which is why I don't want anything to do with the industry, I just want to make music. That's the safest place to be right now.

So you're alive now aim a bit higher
put the stars to shame - Blue States

New 9 track release from Yummykind : Points To Broken Link

Yummykind Music is the creation of Chris Cassil under which there are two aliases: Yummykind and Inoyun. Both expressions explore both multi and uni-thematic approaches to experimental beat structures as well as straight forward minimal house/breaks and fractured beats with broken melodies. Yummykind Music also releases free podcast mixes of which the 10th mix was released in mid 2009, all available for free download.

Yummykind Music is the umbrella that houses the two artist's and yummykind.com in his site that branches out to all things of personal interest. The object: Discover and Create New Music.

Points To Broken Link is a broad range approach to electronic music of high quality electronic sounds. These tracks are not 44.1Khz rather they are 48.0Khz and mastered in Variable Bit Rate. For the complete track listing and to download all tracks please visit: http://yummykind.com. Please also feel free to distribute these tracks but remember to keep in mind the artists work in creating them by attributing them to me (Yummykind).

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